Me, my new bike, and a huge grin

As I write this, we are in an unusual winter snowfall in April. One last stand by Old Man Winter before he retires for the season. I am definitely looking forward to warmer weather. It has been a long, cold, dark, and busy few months. 

Recently, I've been further involved in Atlantic Canada's energy landscape. In February, I attended Marine Renewables Canada's "Powering Progress" session in Halifax, which focused on Nova Scotia's offshore wind vision. The strong turnout, including ministerial participation, reflected growing interest in this sector. I am still actively involved in the Node Zero advisory committee, which has been a fun and informative experience for me, connecting me to a broad network of professionals in the ocean tech sector. And next week I’m attending the Smart Energy Conference in Halifax, which should provide good networking opportunities and insights into clean energy developments here in Atlantic Canada.

My writing this quarter has explored several areas. I examined how U.S. tariff threats reveal vulnerabilities in Atlantic Canada's renewable energy sector, highlighting our need for stronger local industry development. I considered how reframing from "energy transition" to "energy expansion" could help maintain momentum through political changes. I also wrote about Trump's tariff policies and their disruptive effect on global markets, while considering where opportunities might exist amid current geopolitical uncertainties. Drawing on literature, I also explored connections between E.M. Forster's work and our current technological landscape, examining what we might be losing as technology advances.

Healthwise, I had some surgery in late March and am now recovering well. I returned to work on April 7 and am feeling much better. Despite the challenges in our Canadian healthcare system, I was impressed by the care provided by the nursing and surgical teams.

My kids are both doing well. I'm so proud of my my oldest daughter Camryn, who won Best Oral Presentation for her thesis on "The Reel-ality of How Short Form Videos Impact Attention" on April 4.

My youngest continues to excel in school and is actively involved in music with her piano and persussion lessons. In early March, she and I went to the Mother Mother concert in Halifax. Mother Mother performed well, and I was particularly impressed by the opening act, Winnetka Bowling League. Cavetown also performed, making it a good night of live music.

My wife Kerry remains active in the local theatre scene and was busy the past few weeks. 

My interest in whisky continues. I attended a number of tastings, including experiencing a 24-year-old KWM Imperial Cask and a 22-year-old Ben Nevis. I also enjoyed an Ardbeg-focused event in Halifax earlier this week.

After a winter of frustrating freeze-thaw cycles, I'm appreciating spring's arrival. The sunshine and warmer temperatures have been refreshing. My walks on the Bissett Lake trails near home have reminded me of the value of connecting with nature. I also recently purchased a motorcycle! A 2024 KTM 790 Duke. I can’t wait to be spending time exploring the roads of this beautiful province this summer. 

What I’m listening to:

The Orchids (Self Titled) - The Orchids' debut hits like a brick through your window at 3 AM. This isn't carefully constructed rock. It's two people plugging in and letting hell break loose. Their fuzz isn't pretty or polished; it's nasty, abrasive, and exactly what rock music needs right now. Fantastic new local band in Atlantic Canada. One to watch for sure. The Orchids remind us what it's like when rock actually rocks. Turn it up and let your ears bleed a little. They'll thank you later.

Deafheaven - Lonely People with Power - This marks a return to Deafheaven's heavier sound after 2021's more shoegaze-oriented "Infinite Granite". This album balances those ferocious black metal elements with moments of melodic beauty. I've been listening non-stop. Incredible album. An AOTY contender.

Papa Roach - The Paramour Sessions - This album has always been a guilty fave of mine. Not a huge fan of the band overall but this was also one of the best performances I've seen live. Jacoby is a professional entertainer and knows how to work the crowd. Superb rock 'n roll album. ∎

My Mom last spring

Some old wounds were reopened today as we received a preliminary report on the issues we faced regarding my mother's care. Here's my advice to you, dear reader who may be faced with caring for a loved one who is in the long term healthcare system. 

Most families in these situations focus on the immediate - the next doctor's visit, the latest medication change, tomorrow's appointment. Yet the most powerful tool in your arsenal isn't the expensive medical equipment or the latest prescription. It's the humble act of documentation. 

Your memory will fail you. In the fog of endless decisions and emotional strain, critical details will slip away. That conversation with Dr. Smith about changing the pain medication? The date your mother first showed signs of confusion? The name of the person doing that assessment? These details matter.

Documentation is your shield against the chaos of long-term care. Every declined service. Every roadblock. Every professional who stood in the way. Every medication adjustment. Every treatment. The system is forced to make better decisions because someone took the time to record the timeline of events, the progression of symptoms, and the concerns of family. 

This is about your power. Power to advocate effectively. Power to spot patterns. Power to prevent mistakes. A simple notebook or digital document becomes a basis of truth against the fragmentary nature of a burdened system that often only sees your loved one for ten minutes at a time.

Don't wait for a crisis to start documenting. By then, you've already lost precious data. If you are in this situation, start now. Record everything. Your future self - exhausted, stressed, and faced with critical decisions - will thank you for this gift of clarity. 

In the world of long-term care, documentation isn't just record-keeping. It's an act of love. ∎

Shoreline sunset, Lazy Bay - Nova Scotia 2024

"December’s wintery breath is already clouding the pond, frosting the pane, obscuring summer’s memory” ~John Geddes

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December already! Reflecting on the past year, I'm struck by how quickly time has flown by. It's been a year of ups and downs, filled with professional growth, personal challenges, and cherished moments with family and friends.

Professional Milestones

At the start of the year I made the hard decision to leave my role and team that I had enjoyed at WSP due to a bungled corporate acquisition of our group that made my professional life too difficult. I joined Green Cat Renewables in February, a company expanding into Halifax where I'm working to develop and expand their business into Atlantic Canada. Exciting and rewarding, but also incredibly challenging and the role pushed my limits all year. This new position has really allowed me a lot more freedom and the ability to deep dive into the emerging offshore wind sector where I feel there will be a ton of economic potential and growth as I move into the last decade of my career. 

In the world of renewable energy, particularly offshore wind in Atlantic Canada, it's been a busy and exciting time. I had the opportunity to attend several industry conferences, including the Renewable UK Offshore Wind conference in Manchester, the Marine Renewables Canada 2024 Conference in November, and the Atlantic Canada Solar Summit in December. These events were not only informative but also great chances to connect with colleagues and stay on top of the latest developments in our field.

Another professional highlight was joining the Advisory Committee for the Node Zero Ecosystem project at COVE. It's been rewarding to contribute to this initiative and see how it's shaping up. I also had the chance to travel to Calgary, as well as Edinburgh and Manchester for work, which was a welcome change of scenery and a chance to collaborate with our greater Canadian and UK teams.

Personal Life and Family

On the personal front, this year marked some significant milestones. My wife and I celebrated our 26th wedding anniversary, and our oldest daughter turned 21 - moments that make you pause and wonder where the time has gone. We managed to squeeze in a few camping trips, including visits to PEI and Nova Scotia's beautiful north shore. These getaways, though brief, were much-needed respites from the daily grind. However, the year also brought its share of challenges. My father-in-law passed away on my birthday early this year and my mother's health issues, her move to long-term care, and her passing in July were a difficult journey for our family. It's been a stark reminder of the importance of cherishing our time with loved ones and the complexities of caring for aging parents.

Music

Music is always what I turn to in times of good and bad and this year was an incredible one for heavy music. My top five releases this year as as follows:

• Ian Blurton’s Future Now - Crimes of the City  is a powerful showcase of Ian Blurton's artistry, blending classic rock influences with a modern edge. The album features ten tracks that highlight exceptional songwriting and the band's tight musicianship. Songs like "Ends Of August" and "School's In" are infused with infectious hooks and dynamic guitar work, providing a raw and energetic listening experience. The production captures the essence of live performance, making it feel intimate and engaging. Easily my favourite album of the year.

• Bombus - Your Blood is a thrilling exploration of heavy metal that pushes boundaries while maintaining a sense of fun and accessibility. The album is filled with high-energy tracks, including "Killer", "Take You Down", and "No Rules," showcasing the band's knack for catchy melodies paired with hard-hitting riffs. The fusion of glam metal, classic rock, and industrial elements creates a diverse soundscape that keeps listeners engaged from start to finish. With its anthemic choruses and vibrant instrumentation, Your Blood highlights Bombus' evolution as artists.

• Dödsrit - Nocturnal Will - Spotify says this was my most played album this year. Nocturnal Will marks a significant milestone in Dödsrit's discography, showcasing a refined blend of melodic black metal and post-metal influences. The album opens with the atmospheric "Irjala," setting the tone for an immersive experience that balances aggression with introspective moments. Tracks like "Nocturnal Fire" demonstrate the band's ability to craft epic compositions that resonate emotionally. The production elevates the music, allowing the intricate guitar work and powerful vocals to shine through. This album is not only a testament to Dödsrit's growth but also a standout in the contemporary black metal scene.

• Slomosa - Tundra Rock is an impressive offering from Slomosa, condensing their unique sound that blends elements of stoner rock and grunge. With standout tracks like "Red Thundra" and "Afghansk Rev," the album showcases their ability to create expansive soundscapes filled with heavy riffs and melodic hooks. Each song flows seamlessly into the next, creating a cohesive listening experience that feels both fresh and familiar. The band’s chemistry shines through in their dynamic arrangements, making Tundra Rock an exciting addition to the stoner rock genre. The track "Rice" is just wall to wall riffs. Soo good. 

• Blood Incantation - Absolute Elsewhere is an ambitious release from Blood Incantation that pushes the boundaries of death metal into new realms of creativity. The album features intricate compositions that weave cosmic themes with progressive structures, exemplified in tracks like "The Stargate [Tablet I]" and "The Message [Tablet II]." The seamless transitions between heavy riffs and ethereal atmospheres create an immersive listening experience that captivates from beginning to end. With its exceptional musicianship and bold artistic vision, Absolute Elsewhere solidifies Blood Incantation's status as pioneers in modern death metal. Trippy and heavy - as if David Gilmour had listened to a lot of Morbid Angel.

Looking Ahead

As I wrap up this year and look towards the next, I'm filled with a mix of gratitude and anticipation. I'm thankful for my supportive family, proud of my children's accomplishments, and excited about the coming opportunities, both professionally and personally. I don’t really do new year resolutions (who needs that disappointment, amirite?!) but here's to another year of learning, growth, music, and hopefully, a few more walks in the woods and camping trips thrown in for good measure. ∎

Harbour Tugs at Rest - Halifax, Sept 2024

"I'm so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers" ~L.M. Montgomery's 'Anne of Green Gables'

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Autumn really is my favourite season. This has been a very hard year and despite cooler temperatures, the warmth this season brings always seems to make things a little easier. Vacations are over, kids are back in school - there’s more order in life this time of year.

In September, we celebrated Camryn’s 21st birthday. In a time-honoured tradition, I gave her some valuable family heirlooms that had been handed down to me from my father. He passed away before he could give them to me so my mother had that honour when I was 21.  I had been thinking about this day since long before she was born, and now here we are. Felt good and complete to maintain this tradition and I know eventually she will make similar decisions. Lately, as I get even older, I’ve been contemplating on life's changes like these, the passage of time, and the importance of maintaining traditions.

I am so proud of my kids. Camryn was teaching science up in Natuashish, NL for part of the summer. She’s really taking those great opportunities life is presenting to her and I love that she is having these experiences. My youngest has been developing her skills in music, art, and sport. Her drumming and piano are steadily improving and she’s taken up skateboarding this summer. 14 is a tough year but it seems like she is figuring it out just fine. 

My wife Kerry and I marked our 26th wedding anniversary in September. I am privileged to have such a wonderful and patient partner in life. We’ve been through a lot together, especially this year with the loss of her father and the loss of my mother. I am glad to have that support alongside me. 

Workwise, it has been a productive few weeks. I've recently had a few instances of people seeking me out for guidance and mentorship and it has been so interesting and rewarding. I fondly remember every mentor I've had. It may not seem like much, but an experienced perspective makes a big difference in a person's career development. I am planning attendance at several upcoming professional conferences later this year. I also joined the Advisory Committee for the Node Zero Project through COVE, and I’ve been involved in entering new markets in renewable energy projects, particularly the west coast of Canada and in offshore wind development in the Atlantic region. My job is definitely not boring!

What I’m reading:

The Scout Mindset by Julia Galef – this book explores the concept of a scout mindset - the motivation to see things as they truly are rather than as we wish them to be - and contrasts it with the more common soldier mindset of defending existing beliefs, arguing that cultivating a scout mindset leads to better decision-making and a more accurate understanding of reality. Highly recommended. 

What I’m listening to:

Slomosa – Tundra Rock - This new album by Slomosa has been on constant rotation lately. Wall to wall riffs. The track Rice is incredible. If you like hard driving stoner rock, get it in your ears.

Blood Incantation - Absolute Elsewhere - I've never been a big death metal fan but this album is an ambitious and genre-defying journey that seamlessly blends that brutal genre with progressive rock, ambient soundscapes, and psychedelic elements to create a cosmic and mind-bending musical experience. It's as if David Gilmour had listened to a lot of Morbid Angel.

Green Druid - At the Maw of Ruin - this 2020 release represents a significant evolution in Green Druid's sound, offering a fresh and exhilarating take on doom metal that incorporates elements of black metal and dynamic tempo shifts. The album's epic song structures and devastating riffs make it a standout release in the contemporary metal landscape. ∎

My Mom and I

It has been a very difficult month. I lost my mother on July 29th. 

Long time readers know that she had been living with advanced dementia for the past several years. She had recently been staying in long term care and passed quietly and peacefully on that Monday evening. By all accounts there was no pain or distress. She had a long wonderful life, with many painful challenges and I am relieved that her passing was free of pain and fear.

For much of August, my family and I were dealing with the aftermath and planning for her celebration of life, which was held in Middleton, NS on August 17th. Her service was a lovely gathering of friends and family in the community where she lived and contributed so much. 

She was buried on Sunday at her childhood church of Bethel Presbyterian, in her family's plot next to her husband (my father) and her greater family.  To quote my oldest daughter, I'm sure she's enjoying a long awaited reunion now. 

I am including the text of both her obituary as well as my eulogy in this post so that she will be remembered for the incredible person that she was. 

The link to the video of her funeral service is here.

     Obituary

It is with great sadness that we announce the passing of our beloved mother, wife, nurse, and community volunteer, Evelyn Fraser, who lived a long, fruitful life and passed away peacefully at her care home on the early evening of July 29, 2024. She was 89 years old.

Evelyn was born on the summer solstice, June 21, 1935, in Three Brooks, Nova Scotia, where she spent much of her early life living on the family farm in Scotsburn. She was the eldest daughter of Gertrude and George MacLeod and grew up with Blair, Ivan, Jim, and Elna in a close-knit family. Evelyn was an excellent student and began school in a one-room schoolhouse before attending Pictou Academy. After graduation she went to the Victoria General Hospital School of Nursing to pursue her dream of becoming a Registered Nurse. After graduation, she worked as an RN for over 13 years, locally in Halifax as well as in Ottawa (at the National Defense Medical Centre) and Boston. She was also active in the Royal Canadian Air Force Auxiliary from 1959 to 1962, attaining the rank of Flying Officer.

She further developed her nursing career in the 1960s by completing her Diploma in Nursing Service Administration at Dalhousie and graduated in 1967. She continued her career specializing in OR and Neurosurgery, becoming Supervisor of the Neurosurgical OR at the VG. In the 1980s, after the death of her husband Gordon, she went back to work as an OR nurse working at Soldiers Memorial in Middleton until the age of 72. She spent many years helping to care for and heal countless patients.

Evelyn married Gordon in 1968, and they were blessed with three children, Bruce, Jamie, and Hector. She was a devoted wife, and they both enjoyed 16 years of love and companionship until his passing in 1984. As a mother, Evelyn was kind, nurturing, and supportive, always putting her family's needs before her own, especially during those difficult years after Gordon's passing. With Gordon’s death, she faced the immediate challenge of raising three young boys on her own. Despite these hardships, she always ensured that they never wanted for anything. She did her best to raise her sons with a determined dignity and respect, instilling in them the values of hard work, compassion, and integrity. Today, all three are successful men with wonderful families of their own, a testament to her unwavering love and dedication.

In addition to being a loving wife and mother, Evelyn was a dedicated community volunteer. She believed in the importance of giving back and spent countless hours volunteering for various organizations, including the United Church of Canada, Emmanuel Congregational Church, and the Valley Claymore Society. Evelyn's devotion to her church and community was strong and steadfast. She was deeply involved in community outreach, often tending to the sick, the elderly, and those in need. Her compassion and commitment to helping others were evident in her tireless efforts to improve the lives of those around her. She played an active role in the administrative affairs of her church, ensuring that everything ran smoothly and efficiently. Her leadership, organizational skills, and her contributions left a lasting impact on the community she loved so much.

She had a love for drama and music, which she shared generously with her community. For decades, she wrote, produced, and directed the dramatic Christmas pageants at her church, bringing joy and inspiration to all who attended. She was always active in the church choir and looked forward to singing every Sunday. Her creativity and passion for the arts were evident in every performance, and her dedication to these productions created cherished memories for countless families. Evelyn's contributions to the cultural life of her community will be remembered and celebrated for years to come. Her selflessness, dedication, and hard work helped to make her community a better place.

Evelyn will be deeply missed by her children Bruce (Kerry), Jamie (Kristen), and Hector (Kelley); grandchildren: Camryn, Claire, Rebecca, Clara, Mabel, Evelyn, and Eoin; and her many friends. She is survived by her sister Elna (Richard) Innis and many in-laws, nieces, and nephews.

Her kindness, wisdom, and selfless generosity touched the lives of everyone who knew her and we are grateful for the many memories we have of her and the strong legacy she leaves behind.

A special thanks to the dedicated care staff at both Precision Health (Washmill Lake Drive) and Parkstone Enhanced Care who took such wonderful care of Evelyn over the past two years.

The memorial service to celebrate Evelyn's life will be held 2:00 pm on Saturday, August 17 in Middleton Funeral Home, 398 Main Street, 1.855.825.3448. Rev. William MacDougall and Rev. Sweis Ubels officiating. Private interment in Bethel Church Cemetery, Scotsburn, Pictou County.

In lieu of flowers, donations can be made to the Bethel Presbyterian Church in Scotsburn, Emmanuel Congregational Church in Middleton, or Hope and Healing International, formerly Christian Blind Mission, an organization that was close to her heart. Online guest book may be signed by visiting: www.middletonfuneralhome.com 

Rest in peace, Mom. You will always be loved and remembered.

     Eulogy

Good afternoon everyone, thank you. Mom would be so pleased. I see many faces of family and friends, some who I haven't seen in many years, and many new faces as well. Mom would be so pleased to be surrounded by family and friends.

We are all gathered here to honour the memory of my mother, Evelyn, a woman whose community and faith were the cornerstones of her life. I stand here with deep respect for her beliefs and the comfort they brought her.

Mom found solace in the Gospel of John, particularly chapter 14, verses 1-2. This passage held special meaning for her, offering hope not just for the afterlife, but for her earthly journey as well. In it, Jesus speaks to his disciples, saying:

"Do not let your hearts be troubled. 

Believe in God; believe also in me. 

In my Father's house are many rooms; 

I go to prepare a place for you."

Mom saw this not merely as a promise of what comes after, but as an invitation to find peace in the present. She believed that these words assured a loving preparation for an eternal, intimate relationship with God.

As we remember my mother today, those who share her faith might find comfort in the belief that she now rests in that promised place of peace. For others, we can appreciate how this belief brought her solace and shaped her approach to life.

Mom often spoke of Jesus' words: 

"I am the way, and the truth, and the life."

She understood this not as an exclusive claim, but as an assurance of a path to peace and understanding. The idea of an all-encompassing love resonated deeply with her.

In her life, we saw the reflection of her beliefs in her actions and relationships. Her generosity and warmth touched all of us. She lived by the principle of doing greater works through everyday acts of love and compassion.

My mother embodied strength and goodness in every aspect of her life. She faced so many of life's challenges with a grace and strength.

A favourite passage of mine comes from a song by Emma Ruth Rundle called, The Valley

"I want to step into the armor of another, stronger. 

I want to look once through the eyes of someone good"

Beautiful words in a song about sorrow and personal struggle. About resilience and striving to do better. To see the world from a better perspective. I wish to view the world through mom's eyes, filled with empathy, strength, and goodness.

We all remember the joy and laughter she brought into our lives. Her wit, her unwavering support, her strength in difficult times - these were the practical manifestations of her faith. Her presence was a comfort to many, much like the scripture she held dear.

As we bid farewell to her today, let's carry forward the legacy of love and hope she left behind. We honor her memory by continuing to spread the kindness and joy she embodied through her life.

When a mother dies, we lose a piece of who we are. We lose the person whose story provides the very beginning of our own. But a son can never truly lose his mother. She is forever a part of him. 

May her memory be eternal.

Thank you all for being here today. ∎

Beautiful architecture in Manchester (2024)

It has been a productive June. I spent part of it travelling in Edinburgh and Manchester for work. I was with my UK colleagues at our head office in Roslin (south of Edinburgh), then attended the Global Offshore Wind conference in Manchester. It was my first time in this huge English city and I really enjoyed it. The city was really interesting - beautiful architecture, great food, and a vibrant night life. The Global Offshore Wind conference put on by RenewableUK was very well attended and we made many interesting connections, some that will have direct impacts to the developing offshore industry here in Atlantic Canada. The connections made are already showing their worth and we're partnering with other firms on a proposal to assess the overall wind energy supply chain here in Atlantic Canada. With some luck we'll be successful. I've put together a very strong team. 

Edinburgh was also a lot of fun. I've been there before but this time I was able to explore the area south of the city in more detail, spending time in Roslin and visiting the Rosslyn Chapel. This was an incredible visit close to my head office. Rich history, architectural splendor, mystical associations, scenic location - it was a captivating few hours spent on a rainy Sunday. 

One of the highlights of my trip was a visit to the National Museum of Scotland. I could've spent hours in there. With its vast collection of over 20,000 artifacts spread across multiple galleries, the National Museum offers an engaging and educational experience for people of all ages, showcasing Scotland's rich heritage alongside global history and scientific achievements. They had everything from ancient Assyrian artifacts on display to the present day with F1 cars and modern aviation. And a lovely café as well. The Royal Mile is always so busy and this is a wonderful, quiet place to escape the bustle. And, of course, to feed my whisky obsession, I managed to find a bottle of Dailuaine at Royal Mile Whiskies - one of my faves and hard to find outside of Scotland.

I'm back home now and both kids are out of school and on summer break. My oldest is working with the SuperNova program, providing science education to rural and other communities through targeted STEM outreach, workshops, and camp programs. I'm very proud of her. My youngest daughter finished up her classes in Grade 8, as well as her piano instruction for the summer. She had her recital at the end of June and I can really see how well she has developed.

My mother moved into a long term care facility in May - thankfully located very near to where she had been living and close to both my brother and I. This was a stressful few days but she's all settled in now and doing very well. Having access to on-site medical care and overall 24hr surveillance is important to her care and I'm very pleased that she won't be back and forth to the ER every time there's a relatively minor issue. Our medical system is in an absolute shambles but once you're in a care program, things are much better. I made a post on twitter about it that went sorta viral which was very cool. People really related to this. So many are going through similar challenges. There are lots of us sandwich generation people out there it seems. It's hard. 

My wife continues her theatre development and spent months of hard work preparing for her role in The Dartmouth Players version of Oscar Wilde's The Importance of Being Earnest which ran in late June to early July. They did a great job with the production!

I managed to get to a metal show last month as well, seeing Dopethrone at Gus' Pub. I love small venue shows. They were fantastically loud and heavy. My oldest daughter and her partner joined me and we had lots of fun watching the crowd mosh around. Hellbent, down from Hamilton, were a fun opening hardcore addition to the bill.

SailGP was in Halifax this month. It was great to see these sleek boats racing in the harbour with speeds up to 100 kph. I found it quite fitting that Halifax was added to the circuit with the province's history in the development of hydrofoils. Alexander Graham Bell was experimenting with this technology here in Nova Scotia over a century ago.

We also spent a day at the Harbourside Ribfest! June was a lot of fun this year even though I was unable to take any real time off due to proposals etc. Hoping for a few vacation days this month and planning a week or two off in August.

What I'm reading:

The Cancer Olympics - by Robin McGee chronicles her living with late-stage colorectal cancer and her subsequent advocacy for better cancer treatment policies. My wife gave me this book signed by the author. I was going through my own diagnoses with cancer in 2016 and this book helped me a great deal. Robin recently passed away from her illness so I am re-reading this great resource.

What I'm listening to:

Arkangel - Love this Belgian band's blend of metalcore and thrash. They have that intense and aggressive sound I crave. Heavy riffs, brutal vocals, and relentless drumming. What burning up on reentry sounds like. ∎

Offshore Heavy Lift Vessel - Orion

I'm enjoying working over in downtown Halifax these days. I'm mostly in a hybrid arrangement, working two days at home and three days in the city. I take the ferry over and back and it's actually been a pleasure having that time to mentally prepare for the workday while watching all the activity in our busy harbour. Spring means the temperatures are getting warmer and the shops along the waterfront are starting to open with all sorts of options for coffee meetings, lunch, and walks along the harbour when I need to take a break. 

It was nice to see DEME's heavy lift vessel Orion in the harbour earlier this month, stopping over on her way to install foundations for the Coastal Virginia Offshore Wind project. Along with our region’s own sector growth, the strategic location of Atlantic Canada to the developing offshore wind projects of the eastern US holds broad industry promise for both countries. The Port of Halifax is serving as a waypoint in the logistics & supply chain to service the developing wind projects off the US east coast. I love that I can observe all this from my morning commute and out my office window!

In other news, I've been working closely with my brothers to manage and coordinate the care required for our elderly mom, which has been keeping us busy. Her care needs are steadily increasing and she will be likely need to be moved into a long term facility soon where she can have complete round the clock care. This is not an easy development and the stress has been weighing on my family and I quite heavily. 

My wife is busy as always and preparing for another theatre production in June. Both my kids are doing well. We just found out that my oldest made the Dean's list at SMU this year! Very proud of all her hard work and dedication. My youngest continues to do well in her music studies and is really coming along in both piano and drums. 

I'll be travelling to the UK in June - visiting Edinburgh first and then heading down to Manchester for the Global Offshore Wind conference. Should be a busy month. Looking forward to being back in Scotland again and hitting some whisky shops!

What I'm reading:

Rome's Last Citizen - by Rob Goodman and Jimmy Soni offers a thought-provoking read that resonates with our own turbulent times, exploring themes of terrorism, political corruption, and the gulf between elites and the governed. It is a story of Cato, an uncompromising man in a time of crisis and his lifelong battle to save the Republic, ultimately raising profound questions about the role of principled leadership in the face of opportunism.

What I'm listening to:

Totem Skin - Weltschmerz - I've been in a grindcore mood lately. Must be all the stress and uncertainty in my life lately. This 2015 sophomore release has everything. High-speed hardcore, panic inducing ferocity, dark melodic transitions, and chugging doom riffs. Love the artwork by Chris Panatier. Wicked album. Totem Skin unfortunately disbanded in 2017 and the brilliant Swedish/Dutch black metal band Dödsrit was formed out of its ashes. ∎

Queens of the Stone Age - Halifax, April 2024

“Small opportunities are often the beginning of great enterprises” ~Demosthenes

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Exciting times lately! I've been hard at work with the GCR team developing the Halifax office, paving the way for sustainable energy solutions in our region. I recently had the privilege to represent at the Smart Energy Conference in Halifax as a delegate, soaking up insights and connecting with fellow industry leaders. It was a great conference and we made many new connections within government and industry. 

Speaking of conferences, I'm gearing up for a trip to the UK in June where I'll be heading to Edinburgh, then off to Manchester for the Global Offshore Wind Conference. Can't wait to dive into new experiences, meet our UK team, and expand our reach in the renewable energy world. 

Spending time with my mom, whose dementia continues to advance, but thankfully she is happy and content, and she still recognizes me. I know she's still in there somewhere.

Managed to briefly catch the total eclipse that occurred in our region, a fantastic reminder of the clockwork of our universe. 

And, of course, I couldn't pass up the chance to catch Queens of the Stone Age and The Struts at their epic concert in Halifax. A bunch of us went to the show, including my daughter and her friend, my friends, and my brother. It was a great night out in Halifax. Life's about balancing work and play, and it's been a busy month doing both lately!

What I'm reading:

• The Win Without Pitching Manifesto - This book by Blair Enns offers a refreshing perspective that urges creative professionals to prioritize their own value and expertise over the pressure to constantly pitch for business. Enns offers practical insights and strategies for positioning oneself as a trusted advisor rather than a mere service provider, empowering readers to cultivate meaningful client relationships and command their worth in the market.

What I'm listening to:

• The Struts - Everybody Wants - is a powerhouse album filled with anthemic hooks and infectious energy, showcasing the band's knack for delivering unapologetically fun rock tunes. I was introduced to them with their electrifying performance as the opening act for the Queens of the Stone Age concert in Halifax in April. They set the stage on fire, proving their prowess as an act to watch in the modern rock scene. Very impressive band. ∎

“There is nothing permanent, except change” ~Heraclitus

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Big news! I have a new role - happy to share that I've joined the Green Cat Renewables team! I received the positive news in late January and started with them on Feb 20th. It's been a busy month already! Just got back from a week in Calgary meeting the team. I'll be working as a Senior Project Manager and principle environmental consultant based out of their new office in downtown Halifax as part of their expansion into Atlantic Canada. This new position aligns well with my ambitions and I'll be assisting them to set up locally and position GCR for the developing offshore wind sector here in Nova Scotia. 

I'm grateful to my former colleagues at WSP for all the challenging experiences there, and I'm excited for this new opportunity which allows me to leverage my experience and knowledge in the renewables sector with GCR.

I'm very eager to connect with my network in the renewable energy sector in Atlantic Canada to explore potential collaborations and opportunities. Looking forward to contributing to meaningful projects and partnerships to foster a more sustainable Atlantic Canada. Exciting times ahead!

What I'm reading:

• The Antidote by Oliver Burkeman - This book offers a refreshing perspective that challenges the prevailing notion that positive thinking is the key to happiness and success by encouraging readers to embrace uncertainty, accept their limitations, and cultivate a more balanced approach to life that includes both positive and negative experiences.

What I'm listening to:

• This is a Sickness and Sickness Will End by Crusades - The Ottawa-based Crusades, known for their incendiary blend of punk rock and introspective lyricism, deliver a sonic powerhouse that really resonates with the chaotic landscape of our time. ∎

“If you aren't in over your head, how do you know how tall you are?” ~T. S. Eliot

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It has been a rough few weeks. On Christmas Eve I came down with one of the worst flus I can remember. Then my wife also fell ill. We were pretty sick for at least 3 weeks. So much for my Christmas vacation! Thankfully our kids didn't catch it and we're mostly back to normal now. 

Work has been challenging so far in 2024. We're struggling with resources in my group as people leave the company and the work falls to those who are remaining. I've been tasked with taking on a number of additional projects that are in various states of completion with very few resources. With everything else that has been going on in January, this added wrinkle really makes it feel like the pressure is mounting, but I'm picking away at things as best I can and dealing with the items that are flaming up in front of me.

My father-in-law passed away on my birthday. I had known him since I was nineteen years old. 35 years - more than twice as long as I knew my own father. He was a wonderful, caring, strong man and pillar of his community. Gerry McLellan was born in Springhill, served in the Royal Canadian Air Force, was a Federal Correctional Officer, owned a construction company, and in 1983 he became the Superintendent of the Cumberland Correctional Facility until his retirement in 2001. Gerry was actively involved in his community, contributing to various organizations such as the Oxford Lions Club, Oxford Town Council, and serving on school boards and library boards. His love for snowmobiling and dedication to trail development in Oxford led to several awards, including the Provincial "Volunteer of the Year" in 2015. On top of all that (and most important of all) he was a loving husband, father, and friend to a great many people. He will be sorely missed.

What I'm reading:

• Things I learned From Falling - this memoir by Claire Nelson recounts her harrowing experience of getting lost in the desert while hiking alone. The book explores themes of survival, resilience, and self-discovery as Claire reflects on the physical and emotional challenges she faced during her ordeal. Through her journey, she gains insights into fear, vulnerability, and the strength of the human spirit. 

What I'm listening to:

• Dozer - Drifting in the Endless Void Dozer's first studio album in 15 years is one of my faves in metal for 2023. 'Drifting in The Endless Void' has a matured sound that expands beyond traditional stoner rock, but still jammed with fuzzed-up heaviness.

• The Discussion - Movement Towards a New Beginning When Kylesa broke up Laura Pleasants started The Discussion. If you're a fan of Kylesa, The Cure, Echo and the Bunnymen, Slowdive etc this album is up your alley. Dreamy shoegaze, indie rock and post punk. ∎

“I didn’t mind getting old when I was young. It’s being old now that it’s getting to me.” ~John Scalzi

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Work has been pretty steady with some projects closing or finalizing, and we're bidding on some new work up north which is pretty exciting if we get it. Feels good to be working with a national collaborative team on this.

My wife is back in another play, this time for Central Zone Players called It's A Treasure Chest Christmas - should be a lot of fun. Both kids are doing very well in university and grade 8. This semester is almost over! Soon it will be Christmas break. 

This is a common complaint, but as I get older, the time really does seem to go by faster. This year flew by so quickly and I don't really feel like I was able to fully enjoy it. Experts say our perception of time greatly changes as we age, which makes certain periods feel like they go by quickly. I think that as we age, our attention also plays a key role in how we process time. When we’re distracted, time speeds up. And I've been so distracted these past couple of years.

I need to spend more time outdoors. This is something I'm very fond of and I haven't been able to do as much as I'd like this year. A simple walk in the natural environment is often enough to help me consciously connect with what’s around me. Also photography - something about being in nature and the process of seeing my environment through the viewpoint of framing a scene to get the right shot that focuses my mind. I haven't been shooting much lately and need to fix that. 

What I'm reading:

• Still mostly sci-fi short stories as that's about all my attention span can accommodate lately.

What I'm listening to:

• Gel - Only Constant Debut album of the year, in my opinion. Feisty and ferocious hardcore with tons of groove - and Sami Kaiser's vocals are just what I love. Gritty, abrasive, and articulate.

• Cannons - Heartbeat Highway This brand new release is fantastic. I just love Cannons' fusion of deep-house, indie-electronic, and '80s synth-pop. Compared with 2022's Fever Dream, this album further develops their style while preserving that chill synth-pop essence defining their sound, infusing optimism into themes of longing. ∎

"September came in with golden days and silver nights" - J.R.R. Tolkien

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Autumn is here again - the year really seems to be rushing by. I enjoy the cooler temperatures, the crispness of the air - and the hikes this time of year are always full of colours. As usual I'm behind on yard work and getting things ready for the end of the season. But I still have time. Hurricane Lee came and went. Thankfully no damage and the storm wasn't as bad as Fiona last year. Hopefully that's it for this year. Always feels a bit like we're the pin end of a large bowling alley every fall with storms lining up to head our way. 

My wife and I celebrated our 25th anniversary on September 11th. We marked the occasion with a great night out at Cut Steakhouse. That was one of the nicest meals I've had, which says a lot. I've eaten in nice places all over the world. I'm very lucky to have such a wonderful and supportive partner in life. We've been through a lot together.

Both kids are back in school now - our oldest is in her 3rd year in sciences at SMU and our youngest started grade 8. Both are settling in well and it's a quieter time around the house now with structure and schedule returning. 

Work has slowed a bit. It's a cycle of boom and bust in consulting. I'm written in to some exciting and challenging projects but we haven't got the go ahead to start yet. So I'm focusing on maintaining quality efforts on my remaining ongoing work. It's been challenging. My group continues to struggle adapting to the integration and there has been a real loss of talented people from the team, which means more load on those remaining. I hope they get a handle on it soon.

What I'm reading: 

• Some of the Best from TOR.com 2012 - a collection of sci-fi short stories. My favorite being the wonderful Dormanna by Gene Wolfe - a beautifully written tale about a young girl and her not-so imaginary friend. Part of a series based on artwork by John Jude Palencar.

What I'm Listening To: 

• Yellow Eyes - Immersion Trench Reverie New York City-based black metal band Yellow Eyes steep their music with natural environmental character, and this is especially true in Immersion Trench Reverie. With recordings and samples of earthly elements punctuating the production, the result is a complex, layered, and heavy record that really connects the listener to a natural experience.

• Ulvesang - The Hunt Nova Scotia’s instrumental acoustic dark‐folk duo offer a wistful and melancholic journey with their second album released in 2018. The Hunt has been a routine companion through my daily walks, providing a helpful peaceful calmness, especially when I'm stressed or anxious. ∎

We're all having a good summer so far. It has been hectic, the weather has been extreme for this part of Canada, but with all that we've still managed to spend a lot of quality time with friends and family. My oldest moved home with us for past few months and will be back at university in just a couple of weeks. It has been great having her home. My brother Jamie and his family were up from Fort Lauderdale for a visit this summer and it was great to catch up. 

We spent some time along the south shore of Nova Scotia this month for some friends' wedding. Big bonfires on the beach, drinks with friends - it was great fun! We got to meet Charlie A'Court in person. Incredibly nice guy and very talented with a seemingly endless repertoire of music at the ready. Hearing him lead songs around the bonfire late into the evening was a great experience. Another highlight was the dark walk back to our hotel each night under starry skies. Reminded me a bit like when I was a kid with that sense of wonder and exploration.

I also saw Steve Vai in concert at the Rebecca Cohn in August. That was a wild experience. He's incredibly talented and down to earth - he was genuinely amazed at the crowd in Halifax and very generous and appreciative. His band was a seamless ensemble that complemented his virtuosity, enhancing the musical experience with precision and synergy. Each musician had their moment to shine, contributing to a well-rounded performance that showcased both individual talent and collective harmony. For fans of virtuoso guitar and meaningful musical experiences, Steve Vai's intimate concert tour is a must-see.

What's next? I'm taking a week off - we're planning a camping trip to the beach in PEI. Time to recharge is very important to me. Work will burn you out if you don't take time for yourself.

What I'm reading:

• The Cowshed by Ji Xianlin - This compelling memoir is a cautionary tale about the dangers of ideological extremism, the erosion of individual freedoms, and the consequences of unchecked power while encouraging a critical examination of the relationship between propaganda and truth. 

What I'm listening to:

• Disappearer - The Clearing With ties to Doomriders and There Were Wires, Disappearer's album 'The Clearing' provides a heavy, grinding, and introspective experience.

• Titan - Burn Relentless energy and powerful vocals - Burn immerses you in a searing visceral landscape. The band meld colossal riffs and rhythms into a blistering display of metal mastery. This album is a Canadian hardcore masterpiece. ∎

How is it June already? It has been an interesting few weeks. We recently submitted our Environmental Impact Statement for a large proposed wind farm here in Atlantic Canada and engaged the public in an open house which was very well received. I've really enjoyed leading this project and am looking forward to seeing its approval and progress to realization.

My wife has recently begun to get more involved in local theatre and is now a member of the Passage Players. So proud of her. She has always had an interest in theatre and she is really putting herself out there now and having lots of fun with it.

Both kids are doing very well. Our oldest recently spent two weeks traveling the south of France, Monaco, and Italy. I am super jealous and am getting the travel bug again. Our youngest is learning how to play the drums now and is really starting to develop her creative and musical talents. I love that she and I discuss music where she asks my opinion about the artists she likes and I explain what I think might be some of their influences. We definitely don't always agree but I love that she has her own taste and style. It's important.

I definitely feel like I need a vacation. Work has been so busy and stressful. On top of the regular workload and client stresses, we have been inundated with constant change and confusion as we slowly implement and adapt to our new structure under WSP. This seems to be taking ages. I've never quite experienced anything like it before. Like working for a new company every few months.

What I'm reading:

• “The Book of Disquiet” by Fernando Pessoa

• Still reading "Carrying The Fire" and trying to find the time to finish it! 

I need to start waking an hour earlier in order to get some reading time in. I find lately that I only have the bandwidth available for other things and reading is becoming harder to accommodate. Of course this really is not the case and I just need to reorganize my time a bit. 

What I'm listening to:

• Le Tigre - LeTigre - a fierce and electrifying blend of punk, electronic, and feminist anthems. The band's raw energy and thought-provoking lyrics shine through, challenging social norms, and celebrating empowerment. With catchy hooks and a rebellious attitude, "Deceptacon" showcases Le Tigre's unique sound and unapologetic ethos.

• D'ambrosia - Wild Blue - a fusion of folk, indie, and chillwave. The songs are full of soulful vocals, heartfelt lyrics, and an array of captivating instrumentals. With a strong sense of place, 'Wild Blue' invites listeners to experience the artist's roots creating an authentic and resonant musical journey. ∎

It's been an active few months for me, with a lot happening all at once. My oldest daughter is now in her second year at university, and my youngest is already in grade 7 - how quickly time flies by. I meant to update this section earlier and it's hard to believe that both school years are almost over. These days my family is all healthy and doing well and I'm focusing on maintaining balance between my career and personal happiness. 

We recently had a death in our extended family, which hit me hard and made me realize the importance of staying connected with loved ones. I'd lost touch with certain family members over the years, but this passing brought many of us back together. It's a reminder that our time here is uncertain and we should appreciate those close to us.

Work has been hectic lately, but that's the norm in consulting. I'm fortunate to be working on a variety of exciting and innovative resource and renewable projects with an incredibly talented team at WSP. It's rewarding work, and I'm grateful for the opportunity to be a part of it.

What I'm reading:

• Carrying the Fire - Michael Collins

• Yoshida Kenkō - Essays in Idleness

Love this great passage from Essays, written roughly 700 years ago - "It is a most wonderful comfort to sit alone beneath a lamp, book spread before you, and commune with someone from the past whom you have never met."

What I'm listening to lately:

• Meg Myers

• Tragedy

Speaking of music, I'm thrilled that the live music scene is making a comeback here. I recently saw both Sloan and The Beaches in concert and I managed to grab tickets to see Megadeth in May ... maybe I'll see you there!

Thankfully the weather is slowly improving now and I'm looking forward to spring soon. ∎

It's been a busy few months for me. Personally, I was very involved in managing my mother's home and property with my brother and arranging the sale. Professionally, I've been working hard with our team to progress the environmental assessment of large energy and mining projects both internationally and locally here in Atlantic Canada. With all that I managed to squeeze in some vacation this summer where my family and I travelled around the beautiful Maritimes and enjoyed the beaches and forests of our region. We also travelled to Montreal for a short visit. This was the first time I was on a plane in two and a half years due to COVID. It was great to travel again, even for a short trip. Montreal is such a beautiful city! Back to work now. Hopefully all of you had a great summer and were able to take some time to relax and recharge.

What I'm reading:

• The Epigrams of Martial - Martial

• Thoughts of a Philosophical Fighter Pilot - Jim Stockdale

• The Sparrow - Mary Doria Russell

What I'm listening to lately:

• Radiation Breeze by Richard Rose

• Deal Thy Fate by Castle 

• Fever Dream by Cannons 

Since February, my younger brothers and I have been working to coordinate the sorting, packing, and cleaning of my mother's house in the valley since she moved into residential care. Trying to get the house and property ready for an eventual sale. Decades of stuff. Lots of interesting anecdotes and insight into my father's and mother's lives as people, not just as our parents. Isolated scraps of paper, photos, calendar entries - once important documents that no longer mean much anymore other than to provide a further glimpse into their interesting everyday lives. 

It's been a slow grinding process but I've been lucky to have my two brothers and family to support me through this. Downsize your stuff now. That's my advice. While you still can. I have a whole new outlook on material ownership and will be more frugal and careful with bringing items into my life.

Over one year now at Wood, working on progressing mining and wind energy projects here in Atlantic Canada. It has been a busy time over the past year, both professionally and personally. I am still working from home and I have a smart and supportive team here on the east coast. It has been a wonderful experience working with such a capable group.

Personally, I've been dealing with some challenging family issues regarding my elderly mother and the process of having her transitioned into a residential care facility. My oldest daughter moved out on her own, and my youngest is very busy with all her various hobbies and music. 

With all this going on, I am trying to take time to experience the stillness and not get too caught up in the worries of the day. With so much in all of our professional and personal lives and the heavy global issues today, it's so important to take try some time for ourselves.

Seven months now at Wood and I am thoroughly enjoying my time here providing project management and technical expertise in permitting, regulatory & stakeholder consultation, and environmental assessment in support of large scale client projects. I have a great team and culture supporting me.

Since joining Wood I've been working on a national scale managing the post EA permitting for a large LNG project, managing the EA process for a wind energy project, and coordinating the regulatory response for a large mining project. These are all big changes from my last area of focus in offshore process chemistry. I haven't been this busy in a while. 

I am pleased to share that I will be starting a new position on Monday as Senior Environmental Assessment Practitioner/Project Manager with Wood in their Environmental Sciences Group here in Nova Scotia. 

I've had so much help over the past year from colleagues, clients, and friends. Thanks to all who sent support and encouragement. Special thanks to Derick Fritz and the OVAC team for bringing me in on some great projects which allowed me to stay busy, network, and keep my skills sharp while looking for full-time work.

I am really looking forward to this exciting new challenge!

In April last year (2020), my career hit a bit of a wobble. I was downsized from my long time role due to the economics of the oil industry and the travel restrictions resulting from the pandemic. I found myself on the job market again for the first time in 15 years, all at the beginning of the largest global health crisis since the Spanish flu. 

It was very challenging, but also an incredible opportunity to reexamine things. I spent a lot of time adjusting to being at home with family after travelling 50% of the year, updating my resume, training and learning new skills (including how to create this website), applying to positions, working on my photography, and learning how to snowshoe! 

Since August 2020, I've been networking and reconnecting with people and organizations working on environmental and renewables projects. Consulting with OVAC (a company I helped start back in 2009) has really allowed me to carefully reinsert myself back into an industry that I had been away from since 2007. This measured approach has been very helpful in getting me reacquainted with new stakeholders, regulations, and industry practices. 

I am now working on several projects, both regionally here in Nova Scotia, and across Canada, helping engineering clients with their environmental planning & permitting services to gain approval for important infrastructure projects in 2021. 

More locally, I am actively involved with bidding on work in the marine sector and scoping out strategy for services into the developing marine renewables industry.